The year is half over and I'm not where I want to be!
It's almost June, and I have had the realisation that I haven't achieved as much as I wanted to this year. My lofty goals still feel so distant, I haven't advanced in my work, business, or finances - and exercise is still my last priority even though it should be my first.
I want to change so much in my life this year - this is MY year for self-employment, job fulfillment, meeting the right people, moving country, making big changes. Yet, I feel like I'm still in the same place I was in January - with my job consuming maximum time, and my personal priorities are left to spare time - of which it feels like I have less and less.
Take my business for example (yes - I mean you, this blog, & the business idea behind it), I decided to launch it at a time I felt super inspired, desperate for change, and in contact with people I respect & look up to for inspiration. I launched my website at a time of big work pressures, deadlines, and crazy travel schedules - not well planned...
I had all the inspiration I needed to begin, but not the content prepared to back it up, and I've dropped the ball, missing my fortnightly blog release, and letting my readers down - even if there is only a few of you, you are the most important thing in my business world right now.
In the past if I have done this, I've struggled to pick up again, listing projects as new failures simply because I have no time to invest in them properly. But this one I can't let go of, this time it's time for me to change.
Last night I let myself explore and find my reason WHY again - I let the ball bounce. I have renewed vigour for the importance of what I want to create, I have even more reasons why I must work tirelessly on creating it, and I have new ideas of how to meet people who are on the same journey.
When you are starting something big on your own and you are the only person responsible for making it happen (because it is your passion being pursued), it is perfectly natural that you may have a moment when you drop the ball, and not be able to give it the focus it deserves.
It is normal, and it is NOT a failure.
'Every passing moment is a new chance to turn things around'. - You are in control of picking it up again, and making exciting things happen.
So if you are feeling that your year has not rolled as you would like, consider doing the following: