I'm afraid to tell you...
THIS IS ALL THERE IS. It's all there has ever been.
It is just now.
And that is the answer you seek - in a nutshell.
The meaning of life is NOW.
And this is where YOU get to decide.
What meaning are you going to give to your life right now?
You get to choose what your purpose is. You get to choose the meaning for your existence. You get to choose if you are on track.
You get to choose who you really are.
And you get to choose whether you are going to worry about what other people might think or say about you making that choice.
It is not that we fear never finding out the meaning of life...
but that we fear what we are going to do with that knowledge when we do find out.
"With great power, comes great responsibility" Yoda.
Knowing that you choose THIS every day and every moment can be overwhelmingly upsetting...
Is this really all there is??
But the power is not in focusing on your past choices that have gotten you to where you are - the power is in focusing on what you can do right now to bring more of what you want into your life.
What can you do today to bring more....... into your life?
You can choose to feel happy even if you don't enjoy your job.
You can choose to feel confident in your casual clothes and not be self-conscious about what other people MIGHT be thinking.
You can choose to do things your way, so that things feel right for you - still take responsibility if you fail and know that at least you tried. And then get up and give it another go.
You choose your meaning. You choose your life.
And deep in this awareness, choose the things that are important to you. The things that make you come alive. The things that resonate with YOU.
And for me - fuck being normal. It's too important to be crazy-arse me RIGHT NOW. This is the meaning of my life.