With the release of my Big Scary Goal to the world, my list of things to do has grown exponentially, so I planned to do just a short post this week so I could begin to work on the next step of the dream. Well, unfortunately things didn't go quite the way I thought. I hit a wall, I reached the edge, I have fallen down with one of the most common ailments a multi-passionate person suffers.
I'm overwhelmingly confused.
Having the realisation of what my crazy purpose in life is, and designing my BSG, has me pumped for action, but now over-stimulated to distraction. I have so much to do, I don't know where to start.
I'm a multi-passionate mutant, fuelled with a million ideas on how to fulfill my big scary goal, but my overactive creativity is not matched by the time I have available to me, or the number of hands I need to achieve it. Which ends with my brain coming to an almighty grinding halt.
I go into survival mode.
Despite the big long lists of things I want to do, I just can't do anything. Everything I begin, feels mediocre, or just not hitting the mark. The BSG has me inspired, but paralysed.
Down time increases, real life takes over, and the energy for passion begins to slowly diminish with overwhelm and frustration. It's going to take one hell of a drug to cure me of this mutation.
My deep 'Reason Why?'
I reach for the final life line.
I've been multi-passionate my whole life, although only correctly diagnosed in the last 18 months, I'm very familiar with the symptoms I'm prone to display.
Mood-swings brought on by frustration, changing mind syndrome, and the most debilitating one: complete overwhelm from dreaming big.
I know that when I hit this point there is only one remedy that will bring me back to being my naturally fun and motivated self: It's time to have one full day reabsorbing the best vitamin shot money can't buy: my deep 'REASON WHY'.
It was time to reconnect with the pure love and motivation behind my BSG, and not focus on the physical aspects and to-do lists that make it up.
Spending a few hours of every day this week journaling about WHY I began this journey in February, and what drives my passion really sparked in me the desire to push through the confusion and overwhelm, and refocus for the next part of this trip.
Without you, there's no BSG.
It's not uncommon that the curse of the multi-passionate hits right when you have the potential to make some of the biggest steps forward in life. We tend to over commit ourselves because we want to do everything - we love to do every thing...
But low and behold, we have only two hands, and we need to take care of them both, so that we don't suffer from our passion. The best way to do this is to have planned time to stop and reconnect with our deeper purpose - so that we stay on track for achieving our BSG for the right reasons.
Your Big Scary Goal maybe the physical manifestation of what you want to achieve - but YOU are the spirit of the BSG - it will not happen without you, your reason why, and your commitment to the cause.
ACTION POINT: Do you have regular time in your schedule for connecting with your deep reason why? Make time now, or put it in your diary for weekly or daily re-commitment to yourself and your BSG.
I've just redone my daily schedule based on a fantastic post on The Sparkline. I've learnt it is crucial to make time for all the things that need to be done when working toward a BSG - make a weekly plan for it - then just show up.